Dear Kibou,

It appears you became much more self-aware in the past year and went through some serious transformation. It’s great that you’re much more able to be with your own pain, it doesn’t “burn” so much anymore, and you’re able to better regulate your moods, without falling into serious depression.

There’s a few things that caught my attention as I was reading your posts. First – about Japan:

I used to study [Japanese] for a couple of years with a smile on my face; it would simply make me happy I couldn’t explain it. The moment anything related to Japan came up I was interested or motivated.

What was it about learning Japanese and thinking about Japan that made you happy and motivated?

Then, your nomadic lifestyle:

I want to add that I have lived a quiet nomad lifestyle and people coming and going has been part of my life since I was very young. I believe this also plays a factor.

Could you say a little more about that phase of your life? How come you lived a nomadic lifestyle? Was your family moving a lot?

You say that a part of the reason you lost your passion is that some of the goals you were pursuing earlier weren’t even yours:

I can say though that many of those “whys” I was having were not fully only my why’s.

Could you talk a little about that – about your parents’ expectations, and in general how you felt while growing up?