Dear Elie:

You are welcome. You shared in your few posts, as I understand it,  that you grew up “so emotionally aware and sensitive towards life, challenges”, that you can take on the personal challenges you are facing, but you end up worrying about family members you care about, failing to successfully face their challenges. You helplessly watch them work and make efforts to make progress in their careers, but they fail to achieve their goals, “it’s always just disappointment after disappointment”.

You are busy and working, making efforts to make progress in your life, to achieve what you want to achieve personally and professionally, but there are not enough career opportunities, and your efforts end in “failure, disappointment, heartbreak and just a point where life isn’t working out at all”.

There are people who hurt you without intending to, and other people intend to hurt you. You feel lonely, and always felt lonely, a part of you disassociates from people and surroundings, and you may be too complicated inside to be understood.

You are grateful for what you have, but you “want to achieve things, be emotionally successful and reach a point where my efforts will matter in dealing with my problems”, to advance your career “but nothing’s working out”. You keep trying and you hope that “maybe someday the table will turn around”.

I am wondering if you are working hard for your family members, wanting be able to give them the material things/ the material life they want but failed to get on their own?

anita