let me consider your self-diagnosis proposal.. I don’t think that it’s correct

it was actually sarcasm, since im very sarcastic person and you allowed me to show most of my ideas and self, i should’ve said its a joke lol

 I can assure you that a person with a personality disorder knows that there is something very wrong with him/ her, very wrong

yes, but the only difference is that he knows its a part of him, not an illness, not something extra that can go away with meds, as an example, a person who has depression thinks and feel as normal, with depression symptoms, a person with personality disorder thinks and feels differently from others,

another example, i once went to a therapist, a well known one, old and supposedly very good, i wanted a medical report from him so i can get money from the government, he asked some really silly (normies) question, i told him its been a mounth since i take meds, he asked “did you go out and had fun ? with your friends ? did you felt happy ?” his questions was so silly, how can i explain to him that i don’t even like this stuff ? friends or going out, that i don’t enjoy them, and meds doesn’t automatically change your personality, and that serotonin doesn’t make you happy, dopamine does, and actually zoloft makes you have less of that, i told him and he immediately thought im delusional, he did diagnose me with MDD and moderate paranoia, im honestly so tired of norimes and stupid people

you have a very strong need to not be grouped with other people, a very strong need to be seen as an individual unlike any other

i see this as a problem, not a quality, i also want to know why, but i can’t seem to put my hands on anything, with only MDD, it doesn’t explain my behavior, and as i said i don’t believe in the self, so there is something, other then MDD, that drive me to be me, i believe there is a reason why i think and feel and act the way i do now, i told you about the way i think, i only think about myself, my thoughts and feelings all on myself, i know that people don’t think like that, so i think differently, why? why do i feel im wasting my time if i think about someone other then myself, and when i think about people, only for few minutes, and usually they are tide to me, i know this is different, because i see people and the way the act doesn’t follow this type of thinking

 then it means that you have a personality disorder

i feel its a good place to go, its an only a theory, to explain why im the way i am, i actually wanted to create a whole new name, a new illness, but you already did a better one, maybe i should stop making theories, since i know i will never be sure, maybe its just MDD after all, its the most sure and logical answer.