Dear TeaK,

Thanks for your reply and patience.

As for anita’s reply, this reply will be different than usual. Your reply will be a lot shorter than usual, but I hope by reading the reply for anita you’ll see some more of my information.

Yes, my mom is a loving and caring mother. When she got unwell there were times she saw my pain, but she would also “forget” again as she was going through her own pain. Those moments, when it seemed like she was back to her usual self I cherished a lot. So, there were happy memories even while she was unwell. They probably also gave me hope that things will get better in the future eventually. They did and still are, it just took/takes a lot of time.

It is a possibility that she was not able to give me full emotional support before she got unwell. But that will only be because of her past and not being able to receive the support and help she needed. Like I said once before, their lives were not easy, and we all did move a lot. Like for me, for my parents counts because of circumstances it was impossible not to be affected by it.

I believe generational trauma plays a role in my family. It takes a lot of strength but also resources to get the proper help. Sometimes, you cannot get them. I am glad that I am able to receive it, and as more and more emotions are being said and communicated better, you can see the more positive changes in the family. Everyone is willing to change and that matters a lot.

Thanks for your help and understanding.

Kibou