Cont.

So this situation he is in began last August. K is in the Air Force so the investigation through the military is long and ongoing. I have not allowed this to effect my relationship for the most part, since I have found out. I didn’t know about this whole thing until the beginning of March, when K told me about it while very emotional and under the influence and he actually only told me (at that time at least) because I was outside the room he was in and overheard a conversation he was having with a friend. We don’t really talk about it, it makes him really upset and I know his character in general, it’s not him so I don’t question him or bring it up until he does. He cries almost any time he does actually talk about it. He has told friends that if the case ends up going south for him when he goes to trial he is going to end his own life, and it breaks my heart. My happy high energy boyfriend being in such a bad situation makes me so sad. I worry for him a lot because of  the chance that I personally think is pretty slim although it’s basically a he said she said deal. I’ve read the reports he has, and everyone including strangers he had just met that day the supposed incident occurred, didn’t even have anything questionable to say about him. I know who K is, a really good and generally positive person. The point I’m trying to get to is that I think he might not be 100% honest and committal due to thinking he is either going to prison in a handful of months, or going to end his life before he gets the chance to go to prison after trial. I feel he thinks his life is going to completely fall apart so he wants to go and have as much fun as he can before he never gets to again. It makes sense to me as someone who has a similar outlook to him. The big part that doesn’t make sense is why he would get himself into a relationship in the first place when he feels the way he feels about the situation, that’s the big thing that bothered me and I had to ask him about. I don’t even remember what he told me. I was also just upset with him since he obviously just wasn’t truthful about what he was going through from the start. As someone who had met him in a non romantic manner and interacted with him months before this incident happened, I just know he didn’t do anything wrong. One of the most generally respectful gentlemanly guys I’ve met.

Sorry if this is too much to be sharing here, any additional insight is welcome and appreciated ❤️

D