Anita, what do you think about AA meetings? I want to go but I’m scared. …not sure of what but I’m scared and nervous. I have also been thinking of going to church – I am not religious but something has got to give!  I just cant seem to find a balance! I am either drowning myself in work, chores, fitness, and it seems when i take a break because i am so overwhelmed is when this other mess happens.

Sorry for all the messages today. I am feeling very lost today. Normally by day three over the hangover blues but something is different. I even feel like being dead would be better then facing the world. what is happening!

This post is probably all over the place. Sorry.