Hey Sammy I totally agree with you on a lot you said there, my biggest lesson was learning not to depend on someone for your own happiness, that was how it was for me, before we started seeing each other I was so miserable and hated myself she was like a breath of fresh air and that’s what caused my attachment, the heartache has sparked a fire in me now, I’m so determined to do the things I want to do, I no longer fear the unknown and have such a more positive attitude towards everything, its not just me knowing this it’s also a lot of people in my life have commented on how much I’ve changed for the better and happier I look now so the silver lining of going through that heartbreak is going to be turning a point for me which makes me feel relieved when I compare my life to how it was 2 years ago. I can’t explain why I haven’t met someone yet who made me feel the way she did but I’m not panicking either, what will be will be and of course I recognise all of those bad qualities about her now and know there is better out there.

The holiday destination has changed now lol I’m really leaning towards Bali, somewhere I’ve always wanted to go so in the new year that’s the plan. I’ve got this new dj project to pour my free time into now as well, the pub I’ve been working in have said I can play in there when I’m ready on weekend nights so good opportunities are arising!