Dear Arie1276:

“what pushed him away was that he told me he could not provide for me financially the way he wanted..  I had lashed out at him few times about coming home super late… I keep thinking about me lashing out at him about it pushed him away… Him coming back to visit our city in a few weeks makes me feel anxious because I don’t know what to expect”- plan for his visit: (1) plan to not lash out at him when he visits no matter what,  (2) plan the locations you will be meeting with him, (3) prepare questions to ask him, including questions in regard to what pushed him away.

You can do your planning right here on your thread, if you want.

anita