Thanx for your reply Helcat,

some of the things you mention definitly resonate with me,

developing boundaries, graditude, relaxation, coping.

Still working on challenging avoidant behaviours, half way there i guess (:-) )

also being Alone in the comfort of my own house is important to me.

I notice when people are around i often feel uncomfortable,

used to think that was me but as i have been growing i now think i pick up some

vibes of others , wich make feel that way.

So this for sure also played a role in my state yesterday, still in it by the way(!)