Hi Anita

Good to hear from you. I’m feeling a bit on and off. The staff party was hard on me. So many people at that party and he was there. He did smile and say hi, but it was hard for me because he was mingling and talking with everybody then he walked over at stood right next to me slipping his drink not saying anything. There was so much space in that party bus, so him standing that close was really hard(expecially since I’m not good at these parties) then we had to do an escape room and not only was he (and the two girls) there (like great i have to be locked in a room with you for an hour) our group then got divided into two groups ( i was standing in the front for the small room and they were standing in the back for the bigger room) we had to solve a code to get into the same room. Then he jumped into my group(for the small room) and she told us that one had to join the big group because our room was gonna be smaller but he stayed so someone else had to join the big group. That was a bit uncomfortable for me it felt weird.

I’m still talking it over with my friends. Talked with a guy that he works reception with and he also said that this screams that he did like me. Talking about this particular part is extremely helpful. I think it comes from having my reality denied so many times.