@Anita.
I know she has guilt she told me that. However, I also know that she still loves me as she told me that as well. You’re right, she doesn’t want to have communication with me right now. I honestly think it would be too hard for the both of us if we saw or even communicated with eachother from time to time. I would ask the question that you posed but we aren’t speaking however at some point we will and it’s a good question to ask, although I think I know the answer.

@Tee

I think you’ve really hit the nail on the head as far as her having almost two different lives, the fun loving and the giver people pleaser. Her boundaries with her kids were almost non existent and I know she’s just doing the best she can having been a single mom before meeting me. I’m really trying to see any positives throughout this whole thing. I mean perhaps had we not separated we may have started resenting one another. Things may have become bad. There’s no way to know this but things happen for a reason. I know she has a lot of responsibility and I’m hoping that perhaps at some point down the road we may reunite.  Who knows? I have a lot of things on my side that I can improve and I think before I ever get back into a relationship I want to feel better in my own skin.