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February 10, 2016 at 10:35 am #95687
Thank you for your reply. I really like the way he is, calm, nothing is a problem in his world because everything will be just fine and always tried his best to please me but that comes with prize as he is very relaxed about everything to the extent that we were always late for something (would not call it late as we peacefully rocked in late) things got pushed away that he totally forgot about them… It is understandable that I totally miss this kind of lifestyle right now where everything seems to be going wrong with my life but still not sure if I miss him and the feeling he gave me or the lifestyle as I do not like regular kinda life filled with worries, stresses and people rushing around…
I think for both of us to understand what we want and what we did wrong and maybe work on ourself we need to be separated to realize what we had was actually great… but it could be too late by then who knows… it is difficult to know now because it is all big mess .. but we are still in contact everyday sharing what is happening in our lives not sure if that is right too as many people told me it is not good cus we did not let go but I do not wanna loose him fully..February 8, 2016 at 2:23 pm #95298
I just think or thought that there is more to relationship than just comfort… I would love share visions, plans and future but it was always only my ideas and my plans never got anything out of him even when I was complaining that he never tells me anything about what he feels what he wants to do , he only says he doesnt know and for me as a person with many plans is a bit sad and I do not want make all the decisions myself I would love input from him talk about our plans not just decide on one and thats the way it will be and he just goes with the flow easily .. it is too much pressure on ones shoulders.. I would say and many said too that I am very smart person with many interests but he is not that smart but he is more practical can fix and make many things too different ways of being smart if I put it this way..he could not deal with college or smart conversations if you know what I mean… and I know a lot of stuff I could not talk about in two way direction with him..
The comfortness and safety of his company is something that I am afraid wont find that easly and that is why I am doubting my decision to break up even though we mutually agreed but again not much said from his side as usual ..
We lived our crazy surfer kinda style life where you live day by day do not think much about the future just checking the right conditions to go about our sport and get enough money just to get by but have enough time to do our sport when conditions are right but as we are getting older I do not know if that has a future how long can people live day by day? with no plans?February 8, 2016 at 1:41 pm #95291
any inputs more then welcome 😉