Dear anita,

So as i’ve said previously i sent that girl a belated birhday gift…. Which is a music box wrapped in a homemade way…. Idk how she really felt about it as it’s not an expensive or really good music box… just a standard one, but she told me that she saw it cute and i’m full of ideas…

But today she posted a belated birthday gift by her friend (a boy) which is a make up tools and her sister giving her a branded bag…..

I suddenly have thoughts that she might pretend that she like my gift, because she received better ones…. Like her sister giving her a branded bag…. It’s not that i cant afford it for her, it’s just that (on the period when im about to give her the gift)… i only went out with her once…. It’d be too much if i immediately gave her something branded…. Well i can give her a makeup tool but i dont really know anything about makeup tools and also at that time i dont really have thoughts of giving her something about makeup….. Also on her birthday i gave her a small sized cake….
How she texts me till now is positive, and we’re going out tomorrow to watch movies… and planning to have dinner and desserts afterwards….

But i’m trying to calm myself because i keep thinking of the possibility of she leaving…. As i did numerous mistakes (like giving her a cake smaller than her friend, And that music box gift)….. i shouldve gave her a hoodie that time, because it looked more proper…..

I feel embarrassed at myself, i hope she’s not embarrassed that i gave her those kind of stuffs……