Thank you, Anita,

All that he said when he was upset or he thinks it was a joke, etc.
He has done lots of good things too but when I re-think about these words, I have a question myself.

I’m healthy but get sick easier than others and I have had multiple surgeries (arthritis) he told me I’m a disabled person, and always have problems.
Not have to protect ourselves when we have intercourse.  he said you are too old and I do not have to worry about your pregnancy.
I’m crazy, need to go to a mental hospital.  you waste my time, I invest my time in you but you are nothing.
You have too many stains (brown spots) on my face.
You are selfish, and overreacting.
(He stays at his female friend’s house who is single and wants to be with him. – he said we are friends. I’m overreacting.
Share a hotel room with his best friend’s wife and daughter.  One bedroom only.)
Making plans by himself or with friends but not asking me.
He was working at his house with his son and I do not have anything to do.  So I decided to go home… then he was so upset and called me selfish again.  He thinks I should clean his room during he was working outside.
His mother was a bully to me but he doesn’t support me.  He told me enough to listen to my complaint about his mother.
Everyone bully by her (including himself) and I should ignore it.  Their rule or no rules.
I’m a bad mother that’s why my son become depressed (My son is okay now)
Last… a few years ago, he cheated on me with his ex-wife!
He did not want to go to counseling with me because he have done with it. his ex-wife and did not work it out.
He did not want to buy any jewelry because he spend lots of money on his ex wife.

Too many negative words during this relationship but not always.