dear Anita

Reading your last message made me smile for the first time in a few days (as far as I remember now). It makes me feel good to think of you as my friend. im so glad to hear that , your note made me smile too . honestly it was my first time to join a forum regarding my experiences and i wasnt  so hopeful that i could find someone who understands me like you , i always enjoy your comments and it makes me feel good to think of you as my friend too , xoxo

unfortunately , technology let me down today , i wrote a reply at 10 o clock am and now  i was checking again to see your reply  , i found out the one i wrote wasnt sent . i also tried to install some programs in my laptop, again with no success. any way im gonna write it again .

first the heart doctor guy whom you called heartless heart doctor , lol . very well put , i agree with you, he was so tired and overwhelmed with problems to care about anything but his own benefits . i dont condemn it though , i think his mindset of playing victim and thinking the world owe them an easy pass wont work at all . he reminds me of my stepmother , she also had a hard life and had this mentality about people who didn`t as bad people who owe her , the generosity , forgiveness and time . she does lots of unforgivable things  to people she knows , the one who had been nice and generous to her and expect them to forgive her after she screw them over . she also ONLY think about herself and considers others specially other women as subhuman .

returning to the guy , yes it was a very unfortunate experience with a very bad person at a very bad time . but im glad i wasnt that broken to put up with his demands , after chatting with him i realized he is not the person who i would respect or i would care to lose . im sure he would discard me in much worse way if he got what he wanted and about money and having no character ,well i dont think having money help this kind of people to be better , it usually makes them worse . if thats even possible . im just feel sorry for his patients .

about amir nasr azadani , unfortunately , i cant say if it is his end or not , i certainly hope not . In Iran these days the big football players are very active in encouraging people to protest and they are successful because young population look up to them , i think maybe the regime is trying to scare them by putting Amir in prison and threatening to execute him or they maybe actually execute him to make an example of him so the others wouldnt talk against the government , nothing is impossible in my country with current government .

farnaz