Dear levi:

I am sorry to read that your family is not supportive of you, other than financially, so it seems.

“I have mixed feelings on porn, without it, I would lack any significant outlet for my sexuality which could make me desperate enough to tolerate an unhealthy relationship just for access to sexual stimulation“- the way you explain it, it looks like porn provides you with an advantage, but porn also contributes to your feelings of shame, and shame is a disadvantage.

“Although, due to exploitation in the porn industry, I wish to switch to drawn and animated porn“- how about good old imagination/ fantasy?

anita