so I’m going to call bs on this – you don’t cherish her or love her. BUT here are some possibilities of what you do have:

• you may be physically attracted to her
• you may like an idea of what she represents (someone who likes you for you and you enjoy that)
• you only like that idea on YOUR terms. Any thing related to her life and her existence you want to give it up

this is a lot of things but it isn’t love. Why do I say this? It’s not me saying it. It’s you saying this.

for instance

I really really wanna be with her….

I wanna cherish and love her….

Yet you didn’t want to be with her during a family function when she asked (wasn’t your scene or whatever nonsense you tell yourself)

You’re now saying she may move which may happen. It may not happen yet you’re already saying for some reason you can’t handle a LDR when there may not be evidence that may occur.

you’re trying to psyche yourself on both extremes – treating her like a plaything for yourself but any amount of effort you balk because fear one fear two fear three.

has she provided any evidence for this fear? Honestly I’m not seeing it. And let’s assume she does. So what? That’s the roll of the dice in a relationship. Anything can happen but you trust yourself you trust your partner because you have a foundation of trust as individuals and a relationship.

you don’t trust yourself and you don’t trust her. How can you realistically say you cherish or love her as a person when you have no trust in her or yourself?

frankly you don’t. Cut your losses break up and work on yourself.