Dear helcat,

Also there are things that i notice from this girl is that after 3 months getting to know me…. She’s not as enthusiast as the beginning when she start to know me (first 3 months) like she keeps saying that she misses me and that she wants to quickly and meet me….

But right now she isnt making much effort to meet me, like im the only one making efforts to meet her… yes she still accepts meeting me…. But it feels like she prioritize her time with her friends more…. Like everytime she went out with me, she’ll always want to go home early because she wants to finish her assignments…. But with her friends she can go out all day….

Like what should i do? Should i be less boring? I’ve done my best till right now, even fighting intense anxiety…

Well at least we still have a plan to meet on valentines day, but after that i dont know how i will ask her out again, she might say that she’s busy with assignments…..

She used to told me that she is new to this “relationship” thing, that this is her first time experience and previously she never had to think about another person, just herself…. But now she has to think about me too… and she said she doesnt want to get pressured, and im trying my best to not give her pressure…..

It’s really hard being in my position, trying my best to impress her, but at the same time i fight against my anxiety….

Sometimes i also feel that im a boring type of guy… so that’s why this is what im confused on… Should i be like the most cool guys that are cool and not boring, but its hard for me to be like the cool guys….