Hi John,

even though the meeting didn’t go the way you hoped for, I must say I am glad that she was strong enough. That this time “no” means “no”.

Any sort of friendship seems not to be possible, which makes me wonder why we are still communicating regularly.

That’s strange indeed, specially since she knows your intentions. As for why she agreed to meet this time, it might be because she has a kind heart and saw that you were struggling:

I think she sensed I am struggling at the moment. I sense she agreed to meet out of pity as much as anything,

But also, it could be that this time she was confident that she is strong enough to say no.

In a few weeks time it will be 31 years since the first day we kissed. Clearly, I’m one of those creatures that pairs for life. Nature is full of them

I am sorry, John. The way I see it, you’ve paired with two women in your life: your wife and your mistress. And this can never lead to long-lasting happiness…