Dear Anita,

“I have a feeling that you are going through some difficult time right now and the difficult is getting old..? Taken from Star Wars, may the force be with you, Sea turtle!”

Thank you for your concern Anita 🙂 and yes is getting old! I thought I saw him on the freeway today… I feel like I saw a ghost. He was in the same exact truck as N, same sunglasses, same back cover over the truck with the same tools on the tops and sides. I sped ahead as to get a car between us, I truly thought it was him and my heart was beating so fast, he finally passed me and I saw a small difference and knew it wasn’t him but it was long enough to scare me. Also today during my break I was half asleep and saw him. Last night I dreamt that I went to N’s parents house…and his dad asked me why I broke up with N and as I explained he stopped paying attention, later my mom told me his dad said to her “I just don’t understand why she wasted two years.” It was a strange dream and I woke up right from that to work.

In the shower, after I got home, I had a strange vision I had not imagine before. It was two years later and N said that he read everything from this thread! he said he would like to talk at coffee. I met him and he apologized for everything… Specifically He said he was sorry for not respecting me, and that it was not my fault he couldn’t see the wisdom in how I was doing things that he judged. He apologized for treating me out of his pain, and said I didn’t deserve it. He of course said he wished he didn’t have to lose me through all of it and wondered if I was single. To which, in my vision I did not respond to. I then snapped out of it and felt some sort of peace.., His ghost made amends with me, and it brought me some peace. strange.

Seaturtle