Dear Blazkowich:

“She disrespected me by breaking up over a phone call“- but the great majority of your long- distance relationship took place over the phone (you saw her in-person only 3 times), therefore, it was appropriate for her to break up with you over the phone.

“She disrespected me by.. not respecting all my efforts“- I think that she appreciated your efforts, it’s just that she didn’t want your efforts because your efforts were hurting her (she told you so).

From personal experience, I too didn’t want the efforts of help of a certain person because (this is my personal experience, not saying it’s hers) this person heavily guilt-tripped me, using their efforts to make me feel indebted. Therefore, their efforts hurt me and I definitely didn’t want any such effort to “help” aka hurt me.

“I have had a long history of anxiety related issues but I fixed them, but now they have returned after the breakup I don’t know how“- a long history of anxiety related issues does not get fixed and done with. Anxiety never disappears for good, not as long as we’re alive. There are better and worse days, and currently you are at a worse time.

“I hate it that I am still attached to her and I have feelings for her, it’s just hurting me in the end“- I understand. This relationship and breakup has hurt you in the end, but you can look forward to a better time, and continue the slow, patient process of promoting and improving your mental health, starting with not hating your feelings, but accepting your feelings as they are, without judgment.

anita