Anita,

I used to catastrophize too, like you do, seeing things way worse than they are.. I still have this tendency.

How did you overcome this? I feel like I am mentally ill. I cannot handle my emotions. They are too much.

this has to change, sitting in your room all day. Either you find a way to get out somehow, every day, or quit the job ASAP.

I’m thinking I will be getting up at 8 am, reading or watching something and then eating breakfast and going out for some time. A walk or shopping. But yesterday I couldn’t sleep, I think I was having a panic attack, my heart was racing. And today I am exhausted.

How about a few days break from the job for the rest of this week + weekend?

Maybe I will get some sick days or days off.