Yes it was. I was just thinking that I’ve been having this issue since last year. I talked about it, I thought I understood, I explained it to some people. I thought I was cautious and mindful when people bossed me around, or gave me advises, influenced me. This is the thing I keep thinking about almost every day since last year! And now it turns out nothing has improved because I just agreed to go to a place that does not interest me. And it was supposed to be dreamy vacation, once in a few years! The one I was waiting for.

I felt really hopeless. And still do.

I will take some time to answer and read your other post in my other thread, Anita.