Depression is a very hard disease to deal with. Not knowing what the cause is. Chemical, biological, situational, ???? Reading the first post, it paints a picture of a final journey. Looking at thing for the last time as leaving a vacation spot. But, to answer your question, “Am I at the end of my journey?”, no you are not. You are in one stage of many. Your thinking of this life as complete. It isn’t. Humans are in a unique position to learn the truth of life.

People are like drops from a splash of water in the ocean. Each drop has its own trajectory. Flying hi or flying low. Each with a life of its own. This drop more salty and that drop with more life inside. Each unique in its own way. Up, up and away. Spends it time in the air and then comes down back to the big ocean. Never lost. Soon, another splash and away we go again. The cycle goes on and on. So, how do we break free?

Buddha, after having his enlightenment, saw all his past lifetimes. And, with this enlightenment found the truth and the end to this endless journey. So, in his teachings, there are the four noble truths. This is where the beginning of the journey to wisdom and compassion and love opens up. This is the path to freedom.

I am sorry I can not give you the help that you need to bring you out of this depression. This Dis-ease has taken many. I wish you find the help that you need. The forum is a nice place to express feelings. People try to lend an ear and listen. May be tell you its not so bad. So, bad. I wish you find something that can involve you and your mind. To find something of interest. Good Luck.