Dear Ben:

“I’m left in utter panic and the only thing I’ve been able to think about all day for the last week is the status of the relationship… I want to reestablish a warmer connection with him. He said just to live, let life flow etc.”-

– can’t let life flow when in panic. When in panic, a person does the opposite of flowing, the person gets stuck focusing on the perceived danger (in your case atm: an off-status of the relationship).

My words here on your screen cannot get you unstuck any more than his words. To get unstuck:  psychiatric medications… ? heavy-duty mindfulness practices…?

anita