Hi Alex

I would argue that she’s probably never experienced love before unless she’s managed to sustain a long term relationship? She has been used for sex. People likely ultimately reject her because of her unique choices in life. I think that she protects her heart for this reason. A lot of people do, you have only been together for 7 months. She is waiting for you to leave, but hoping you don’t as she wishes to marry you.

I would bear in mind that you are the one considering leaving. She isn’t, she is aware of her faults and that there is no way she could get married if she left when problems occur. A chance to get married is rare for her. She is more invested than you are, but hiding her heart very well as she prepares for the relationship ending because you are unhappy.

That you have experienced so much with her in such a short time was probably a draw for you as you felt that your experiences were lacking.

Wishing you all the best! ❤️🙏