Dear Kshitij:

You are welcome, but I am sorry the effect was negative.

“I don’t know why reading quotes has become an anxiety trigger causing intrusive thoughts/flashbacks just as it did now… reading any type of quote, especially related to things like hope, resilience etc. gives me terrible anxiety and often lead me to a spiral of flashbacks“- maybe (?)  because such quotes create pressure in you, pressure to become more resilient and hopeful, and pressure of any kind is the least of what you need.

“Please do not take it as a complaint, it is really a very kind thing, but this is something I thought I should share with you“- I don’t take it as a complaint; I take it as a compliment: that you feel safe enough with me to tell me your truth. I very much appreciate you sharing this with me. Now I know what I didn’t know before because you told me, so thank you!

“The quote about mental rushing: the moment I read it felt personal. It felt so true. I do not know in what ways it is true, but it felt very relatable“- slowing-down is the cure to rushing, isn’t it. That’s what Mindfulness is about, guided meditations online, even relaxing music.

“Even beyond this, I am feeling lonely and miserable these days.“- I am sorry to read this.. Socializing is another slowing-down/ calming activity. I wish there was a group of people you can spend time with for a couple of hours every afternoon or evening, or every other day..!

anita