Dear Laven:

“Unfortunately since I needed comfort because I have no one.. against my better judgment I contacted neighbor ghoster guy. I am very ashamed and defeated… very disappointed in myself“- please replace the shame and disappointment with yourself with empathy and compassion for yourself!

“This is just a reminder of how truly lonely I am… I am very overwhelmed. Stressed, and depressed.“- will it help you to have me as your friend, here, in the context of your thread?

This current tread is your 13th thread. You posted 13 original posts in the 13 threads, and only one reply (a 2nd post), which you didn’t address to any of your responders, and that was on March 20 this year, 5 months ago.

And that’s okay. If you don’t reply to my current post.. it’s okay. I would still like to reply to your future threads. I am offering to be your friend, here,  just in case it may help you.

“I learned that during the admission process with a social worker.. my foster mom didn’t want a dnr order. She wants resuscitation and intubation.. if her heart stops.. This is very surprising to me, because she is always depressed“- her depression did not void her desire to live, she still wants to live!

anita