Hi Anita

Thank you

I will check the book that you have recommended. I had a busy weekend and I joined a workshop, on how to connect with nature. Observe trees, meditate and do some grounding(imagine being a tree etc). Basically, communicate with trees. I found it quite fascinating as i did feel very energized afterwards. There were also letting go of thoughts and people or things that no longer serve you, some imaginative exercise, which i found it quite helpful also.

I think she really wanted to break up, maybe 80% of her wanted to break up. But i guess i had been probably clinging onto the 20% of it most of the time, especially in the beginning. If what you said were true, those are just lies(conscious/ unconscious) to make me feel more empathetic towards her/ calmer, I think she really needs therapies to deal with her stuffs. I think there is a difference between being empathetic and understanding when delivering messages which can be  hurtful, and altering the result so that the person feels less as hurt/ sad(aka lie). This is a very ingenuine life that she is living, to herself and others, if this is how she is.

Take care