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  • February 9, 2014 at 5:57 pm #50604
    Michelle robin
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    am finding it very difficult to live peacefully. I am in recovery from alcoholism after completing 4 months in rehab. I have lost a few good friends along the way but am ever so grateful to have my wonderful husband and 2 young sons back. I am still battling with anxiety and at times, depression. I have been back home for nearly 2 months and am starting to feel stuck. my motivation is quite low. my husband and I are not working and I am finding that really hard. worrying aboutmo eh all the time, I am obsessed with it! idream aboutmy best friend allthe time, she doesn’t speak to me anymore and I don’t know why…. except for the obvious. I amreally struggling with hurt and pain crom relationships with my family, my sisters and parents. posEd help me I don’t want to fallback into the dark hole of addiction. thank you, Michelle

    February 9, 2014 at 6:04 pm #50605
    Clay
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    Have you considered going to AA or do you go already??

    February 9, 2014 at 6:07 pm #50606
    Michelle robin
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    Sorry – my typing was not very good. here it is again..
    I am finding it very difficult to live peacefully. I am in recovery from alcoholism after completing 4 months in rehab. I have lost a few good friends along the way but am ever so grateful to have my wonderful husband and 2 young sons back. I am still battling with anxiety and at times, depression. I have been back home for nearly 2 months and am starting to feel stuck. my motivation is quite low. my husband and I are not working and I am finding that really hard. worrying about money all the time, I am obsessed with it! i dream abou tmy best friend all the time, she doesn’t speak to me anymore and I don’t know why…. except for the obvious. I am really struggling with hurt and pain from relationships with my family, my sisters and parents. Please help me I don’t want to fallback into the dark hole of addiction. thank you, Michelle

    February 10, 2014 at 10:29 am #50677
    Mark
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    Michelle,
    I would second Clay’s suggestion to find an AA group where they are setup to help people like you. Getting a sponsor would certainly help as well.

    Plus there are state (if you are in the U.S.) resources to assist people in looking for work.

    Remember to keep breathing (it is a proven fact that deep breathing helps with anxiety).

    Find an activity such as walking that you can do on a daily basis so help you, your body, your mind to assist you in dealing with such stressors.

    Good luck.

    Take care,
    Mark

    February 10, 2014 at 3:39 pm #50705
    Michelle robin
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    Thanks Mark. I really feel like I need to work on my spiritual and emotional self, not so much focusing on addiction at the moment. AA can be a big trigger for me.
    I feel like that as you are the only one to reply, I am diseased! people don’t seem to want to reply to my post. Sad, really.
    Thank you again.
    Michelle

    February 10, 2014 at 3:39 pm #50706
    Michelle robin
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    And I also feel offended when you wrote “for people like me”, strange way to address someone who is already feeling down.

    February 10, 2014 at 8:13 pm #50727
    Jessa
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    Hi Michelle,

    Isn’t it so anxiety-provoking to post something? I made my first post the other day, and had a hard time not rushing back to check it for replies. But don’t worry, your post has not been up for very long and you may get more replies still. Even if you don’t, though, it’s not a reflection of you. Whether people reply or not has a lot more to do with them and their thoughts/feelings on the subject, not your worth as a person.

    It sounds like you have so many dark thoughts and feelings swirling around inside your head, and I know how awful that feels. I struggle with anxiety and depression too. I’m sorry for the losses of your friends and the time away from your family in rehab; 4 months is a long time to be away. It must have taken a lot of courage and personal effort to stay and get well. The other suggestions weren’t given very gently, but finding some kind of a support system can be so steadying. If AA is a trigger for you, maybe individual therapy with someone who has experience in addiction counseling would be more helpful. Someone you can talk to and get some support from.

    Remember, no matter how bad things are right now, suffering is temporary and universal. Your suffering is a part of human experience; it doesn’t mean that you’re a bad or worthless human. Remember the things you learned in rehab, seek love and support from healthy people and places, and spend time giving tender love and care to your spirit. You, and your future life with your sons, are always worth choosing self-care over alcohol. You deserve anything that makes you feel good AND is good for you, be it journaling, warm baths, calling a friend, a cup of hot cocoa, your favorite movie, going to therapy or a support group, yoga, whatever.

    Special prayers for you,
    Jessa

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