Hi Matt J. Stokes

Hope you will get some decent sleep before you read this post. When our mind or body doesn’t get optimal rest, we can’t think clearly or make sense of any advice or help that may be offered to us.

I will try to provide my perspective here and I hope you will take it in a positive light. First of all, congratulations for stepping forward and seeking help. You have already started on your divine journey but now you need proper guidance and support to make it through.

– bad choices equals bad consequences. There is no running away from this simple equation. It doesn’t matter what made you choose bad choices over good but you have done some actions and as you sow as you will reap. We all have to do it in this world in some form or other. When we sow a seed of tomato, we don’t expect to find a mango tree in a few months in its place. A tomato seed will grow into a tomato plant.

– as you accept above, you will find it easier to forgive yourself for the actions you have carried. Once, you have forgiven yourself, you will be able to let go of the guilt and find the solace that your heart seeks. That’s when your true inner journey will begin. Have patience.

– there are 2 types of wealth in this world – financial (cash) and blessings. When we increase our financial wealth, there is no guarantee that our happiness or mental peace index will increase. However, when we accumulate blessings, we become wealthy in a true sense as our happiness and peace index reaches infinite. Not many people understand this as we are too caught up in the materialism and have lost our sense of purpose in the world. To understand this principle, you need a spiritual teacher who can guide you on your journey and take you under their wings.

– A person is never bad or good in a spiritual sense. It is someone’s action which is classified as bad or good. It is easy to change an action as we all have a choice to choose everything, which relates to us. We can’t change other peoples action or behaviour but we can control ours. When you are past your guilt, you will be able to work on your actions and be more mindful of choosing actions, which bring peace and happiness. Don’t choose actions that bring someone’s curse or bad vibes into your life. We often know, which those actions are but still continue to carry them out due to ignorance. Wake up !!

– there is a simple way of increasing your positivity or peace index. Make a food donation to needy and children. They provide so much heart felt blessings and it will help to counteract some of your negativity. Mind you, the money used for food donation has to be hard earned with a pure intention. You can’t ask someone to buy the food for you and donate. You need to be part of it and be there serving those needy people. It needs to come from your heart. Yes, initially, you will have a selfish motive as you want to raise your positivity index but over time, this will become a selfless act and bring a lot of happiness in your life.

– no one can erase your bad actions but with time, meditation, selfless service and purity of intention, you will be able to transform your current existence into a more divine presence. Don’t give up. I accept you for who you are and you did what you did as it seemed right to you then. Now you want to change things for the better and may you find all the help you need to make it through.

Loads of positive energy coming your way. I am sure your higher self will get all the help you need as you take more positive steps forward. You still need medical attention so don’t give up on that.

Jasmine