Thank you so much for this out pouring of support. It’s amazing to find so many kind hearted souls out there.

@Matt I am being silly I know. This molehill has turned into a mountain and it feels like my world is coming to an end. I don’t know why I blame myself for everything and why I’m not able to forgive myself for my mistakes, but like a scared dog, lie belly up and submit to whatever punishment may or may not come. Letting go of fear and anger is so difficult.

@Aiyana My gf has been very supportive in the ways that she knows how. I can’t blame her for that nor can I expect anything more than she’s already giving. She’s her own person too and needs to maintain some semblance of herself while I go through this shit – whatever this is.

The walk did me good. It didn’t feel 100% right at the time, but I’m reaping the benefits now.

I’m glad I can turn to you for help and encouragement when I need it.