I don’t know the culture, but in Autobiography of a Yogi, Yogananda leaves for a few days to the mountains after his guru told him it was a bad idea. He has a bad time and comes back, chagrined, afraid Guru would be angry. Guru said, “I have no expectations for any of my students, and only want their happiness. How can I be angry?” For your guru to be angry is a pretty unenlightened response, in my opinion.

It’s hard to transition, or do anything beyond the everyday when your parents are sick. Give yourself a break. You don’t have to leave this red hot minute unless you’re thoroughly miserable.

My old neighbors were a nun and a Brother who found each other and left the church. But your challenge is leaving and not knowing what you’re running towards.

Give yourself a date. Like, I will leave Jan. 1st/ 2015. The Universe will conspire with you to show you your next step once you put your Intention out there.

Good Luck!