Thank you so much Helen. I have saved the PDF to my computer and will definitely read.
Thank you also for your kind words. It is a bit of a pickle because I don’t necessarily want him out of my life completely. My feelings for him aside he is a great trainer and believe it or not they are hard to come by. I’ve had a couple of awful ones.I’ve been with him for nearly 2 years. I didn’t have these feelings instantly, they took months to surface, the more I got to know him.
The last thing I would ever do is cause trouble for him or his girlfriend, I think like you said I just need to work out a way to cultivate that peace about the situation and if I fail then move on. I do love my gym and thats half the problem. I don’t really want to have to leave it. I try to ignore the way his face lights up when he sees me or the way he’s constantly beaming when he’s with me. Have told myself a million times its wishful thinking and that I’m imagining it but deep down I know I’m not. I feel a lot of love for him inside but keep it to myself. People have told me to tell him how I feel but I don’t want to make him uncomfortable. I often think most situations in life are exactly what we need at the time and that we attract all these experiences for our souls growth. I just don’t know what this one is supposed to be teaching me yet.
Much Love
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