As I read these posts I find so many similarities with my own story. I love my wife, more than anything or anyone I have ever known, and here I am, living without her. As Michael stated, it seems to be getting worse because the finality is sinking in. I live in an endless loop of denial, hope and then devastation. I miss her, my heart is broken, I want to make things better and don’t know how. I cannot imagine surrendering, even if I know that is the best thing to do, it seems so impossible. How do you do it?