Hi Allan,
I like your statement about having put so much into your personal growth, and that you don’t want to risk it. And, keep going as Matt said.
If you go in there down the road in the future without getting emotional that could be another good test. Also not going again would be good, too. You are free to grow, experience your emotions and find your way.
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