Rahel,

Then consider finding a park or somewhere in nature to meditate. You keep making excuses, have a mind full of excuses, fantasies, fearful thoughts. All false, all unneeded. Much like your cousin is actually willing to show you around, help you, love you, but you have to go to the party. Same with the heart… its paused, ready, but you have to quiet your mind.

Sure, 5 billion excuses why not to, so what? Do it anyway. Fear the party, “oh no, what if my cousin does…” “what if…” “if only…”. Yes, lots of fear, you know you become afraid, make excuses, sabotage your own happiness. Courage girl, and just keep going to the party anyway.

With warmth,
Matt