Hello,
Sorry you seem to be struggling.
I’m sorry, but this man does not seem that invested in you. If you can think of the people in your life who treat you well, does this man do the same? If not, then he is not someone who is at all invested in making you feel like part of his life. So why make him part of yours? There are so many people in the world, and more than one can be right for you. Maybe this man was right at once point, but maybe not so much anymore. I think if he really wanted to be with you, it would be easier than this, not fraught with confusing conversations and emotions. I’m not saying love is easy, but love is respectful. If he wanted this to work with you, he would be trying just as much as you are. It is time to move on. And it is time to find someone or just people that you can surround yourself with that make you feel happy. I do think that if someone is not meant for us, no matter how much we want to be with them, it never will work out. We might be upset or angry by this, but it just means they are not our true match. Some people stay in situations or fight so hard until there is nothing left, what kind of life and love is that? It is neither. I think it would be wonderful for you to find what makes you happy. And if being with a person is what you feel will make you happy (although, a lot of how we will feel about ourselves and how we wish to be treated from the outside comes from within) then you should be with someone who will make you feel loved and happy. Be respectful to yourself. This man, is not respectful to you. Which tells me, he is not a happy person within. Is that the kind of person you are or want to be with? Lay it to rest, and start a new part of your life.