Hi popi, Steve, inky, Susan and amul… Thanks for responding. Great answers and things for me to reflect on. Coincidentally, I came across this article tonight on compassion being inherent in humans:

http://www.dailygood.org/story/873/the-compassionate-instinct-dacher-keltner/

Reading this made me realize that although I lack the compassion for others to find happiness, I have loads of compassion for any form suffering, even in the things I despise. So I guess I’m not all rotten. 🙂 and yes, I agree that what I’m looking for is my own happiness, which I can find through self acceptance.