Man, you are fab.

Those conversations you’re having with yourself sound totally helpful, and not even remotely weird. Maybe you could have your ‘imaginary friend’ talk to the thought, while you hide or take notes (in your mind, obvs). That’s called using a proxy, and while I’ve never done it, it sounds like it might suit you.

Speaking of things that might suit you: I really like the fluent self blog. You should wander into the archives rather than trying to the most recent posts (they can be a little hard to get into), but have a look if you feel like it. http://www.fluentself.com/