Dear friend

Please hold on to your life. I really think that you have beauty inside you since you desire love to feel fulfilled.
Don’t think all people are like that. Some have settled for money, fame, pride, work, unjustified ethics or ideals.
Yet here you are, desiring the simple need to love and to be loved back.
I can understand the desperation you may feel because your friends cannot support you.
I feel without being certain that friendship is measured in situations like that, however maybe there are other obstacles that i am not aware of that prevent your friends from helping you.
Maybe they are overwhelmed by your problems, maybe you are not asking directy help from them (thinking that you will bother them which is not true).
You are hurting because your man left you. It is for the best. You can build a relationship in the future with your heart mellowed with understanding and wisdom. You have every right to be sad right now. Love yourself. Love your tears. How will you love yourself if you only accept you when being happy? Continue to live and remember things you enjoyed pursuing in everyday life: take that ice cream, that walk in the park, that drink with friends.

Also remember. If you feel the need to speak about your problem maybe this is the time to do it. Join a support group in your area or seek the comfort of a therapist’s ear. And then, talk. Talk, talk, talk. You will feel better eventually. In fact you already ‘ve done that sending this letter via this online community! Immediate human contact will make you feel more vulnerable however, but it is also very remedying if you let her to be.

Last but not least, i sympathise with you.
I am going through similar frustrations but i hold on to hope.
Hope to live. Hope to love.

Take care
George