My ex and I were together for a year and a half. We lived together for 6 months. We had problems communicating with each other. During the relationship i blamed him for the fact that we didn’t communicate or have a good rapport. Now, I realise i was to blame too – i never asked questions or tried to get the conversation going. Still, most of the time we were comfortable and content.

Then towards the end, when I was quite sick this one time, he just left for his camping trip with his buddies anyway. He was never good at taking care of me. His behaviour raised serious doubts in my mind and finally we reached a point where we were not even talking to each other. I was about to sit and talk to him about everything when he went out one night with some friends and word got back to me that he left with a girl.

When I asked him about it his first reaction was that he didn’t remember anything about that night. SO i basically said i was done, i moved out and we never even talked about anything – I was just too tired/fed up/emotional. And he did nothing to stop me or even try to deny that night.

Now it’s been 6 months apart and we’ve had no contact. But i can’t stop thinking about him and missing him. I blame myself for not appreciating him at all, for letting our sex life just completely stop, and for focusing on his bad qualities instead of his many good ones. The cheating part – well things were so, so bad at the end that i sort of don’t blame him.

Am i crazy? It’s probably too late for us, he’s prob got another gf coz he signed up for online dating a month after we broke up. He’s good looking, he’s easy going, he was so committed when things were good… I know i’m not 100% to blame for the demise of our relationship but i can’t stop feeling like I gave up/didn’t try at all…