@tigger-yuko

You have no idea how much sharing your story means to me.
I live really well right now, but I really see no light. I feel empty. So what if I’m eating, living, working and enjoying my life well? I feel so empty without him. Will I really forget him one day? Our love felt so right, and I feel like I’ll never feel the same again. Meeting someone new… will it be as great as this? Will he understand me as much as my ex? Will I be able to love him as much as my ex? Will I be able to love a new person without an inch of love left for my ex?

Can I love like a new person again?

That was all the questions in my head. I really really gave up on relationship now. I really felt like I can never go through another similar one. Nothing will be as good as this.

And tbh, I can’t forgive myself for the mistake ive done. I feel like I was the one who destroyed us. I drove him away. I know, I need to forgive myself and accept things. But it’s so hard when you know you’re the one who destroyed the one thing you held so dearly.

based on what you’ve said, there’s nothing more I should say to him because it’s over. It’s unnecessary. Nothing I say can change anything. I know that. I know it. But ‘what ifs’ keep playing in my head. WHAT IF, he wanted to talk to me, but is holding back as much as I am too? What if he feels too guilty to talk to me? What if he didn’t talk to me because on social media I look so happy and cheerful with my life? Should i let him know that my heart is still aching too? If he knows would that make it easier for him to approach me?

I know what I need to do, but as you can see, I have a problem.