Oh and one more thing…
About the fireworks. If i read well, you were sad because you would have liked to see the fireworks, but didn’t have anybody to go with?
Don’t know if it is fun for you, but would you consider going to these kinds of things alone?
That might not be as fun – although, some people can enjoy themselves in their own company, i personally don’t mind it too much – but at least you get to see or do something fun, which might be better than sitting alone in your room and feeling sad about having missed it.