Im sorry for the responses you have gotten so far. You are simply going through the normal course of depression/sadness/loss that accompanies unemployment. Dreams only die in the face of reality if you let them and life does not follow a clear upward trend of progression. You have been made redundant because most modern companies are unstable in some way. Poor quality, short-term work is the norm for EVERYONE. Its not you. Its them. My advice is this: it is slightly possible that your data is restorable but you need an expert that knows how to dig in deep into the guts of your hard drive – surely you know someone from your last job with these sort of skills. Otherwise consider it a learning exercise. You cannot trust a computer. EVER. If it was that important more then one backup was called for. Lastly get off google. There are no answers to lifes troubles, especially those of the unemployed on the internet. Hope that helps.