Thanks all for you valuable replies. I am highly overwhelmed and will definitely do a workaround to find all the happiness I deserve.
The healing process is the toughest and longest though.Making a lot of efforts to make things positive by indulging in a lot of activities that I like to do. The toughest phase is actually over. But still the remnants cause a lot of pain and finding a way to flush it all out and get back to the fairy world that I lived in once upon a time. Nevertheless lacking out on the emotional support front and finding it really hard to become less suspicious of him though I know deep in my heart that he wouldn’t hurt me ever again. Confronting him is the biggest issue I am facing because of all this and I am also hurting him unintentionally and unknowingly by making him feel guilty about all this for almost every conversation we have and it all ends up in a terrible fight. Just as I begin to think I forget all this , bad time and thoughts just encroach my feelings and I end up in doubting and questioning him with the same old stuffs. Please help me in getting rid of such horrible feelings and lead my life in an efficient way.