Dear Jack:
Excellent observation, says I. Exactly. This is why I say: all I have is this evening, this Tues evening (here) and maybe tomorrow morning. this is all I have and all I will ever have. I do not wish for things to be different. I am relaxing into my life as is. Anxious today, and relaxing into today as well. Being okay with what is the best I can. Nothing is too small, my time here typing this is not a small thing, and I do not prefer to do something else. Dreams of past are gone, the happily ever after of anything anywhere… are all gone and what is left is this evening right now and here, and maybe, tomorrow morning.
anita