Anita: I started seeing the psychotherapist for six months because I had a lot of hope in her and that she could help me. I would blame myself at first for not being able to connect with her so I stayed for so long to see if I could, maybe, eventually get the help I needed. I used to see her once a week the two first months and after that every other week.

What happened there was that she would ask me questions about me about my situation and my childhood and I would answer. I felt like she was judging me when she got an answer from me that she did not like. There was no real communication at all, I see that now afterwards. She would tell me that my situation was not a big deal and that it was just a crisis that would blow over. And I believed her at first but in time I only got worse because I was not depressed over the fact that I was left by my ex but more because I did not love myself. I went to her to try to understand why I feel no love for myself, but she was only focusing on the fact that my ex left me.

I remember thinking “Ofcourse he does not want me, who would?” and it was then that my world fell apart. I realized that I needed to make a huge change in my life.