Thanks SeaIsland;) There are some days when I’m not sure who I am as a person. It’s like there is a side of me that accepts myself and wants to do well in life and knows where to go and there are other times when I feel numb and empty inside and am not sure whether I should try hard in school. I think the underlying factors behind the stress I have are the idea that I want to be toned and 113 pounds and also the idea that I’m not sure if I can open myself to trust the guy I think I love. There are so many doubts in my mind that I’m inadequate and not smart enough for him and also my parents are very hard on me to do well in school and sometimes they rag me on how I need to work on preparing to manage money and prepare for college. Also, the idea that I have ap midterms, algebra 2 honors finals and SATs all this week (January 21-23). I think that whenever I do well in algebra 2 honors,which I am right now, my ap world history grade suffers, I think it is an 89 now. I am currently afraid that I might not make the grade curve to get into Rowan or Rutgers.