Hi Amy! I know that everything may seems bleak for you now but what you should do is to move on. Don’t let the negative thoughts grow on you. Just like a inspirational quote I just saw on a tiny buddha ‘s page, positive people also have negative thoughts but we should not let those negative influences dwell in ourselves.Sometimes the darkness may seem to consume us, making us feel so hopeless and feeling like we want to give up. but remember, no matter how long a night is, there will always be a dawn, and a sunshine every morning.We should abjure the negative things in our lives and treasure the precious and wonderful things instead. For you, your baby is someone who you should spend the limited lifetime of yours with and someone who you should focus on . It’s good that you had got rid of your own alcoholic problems. What you should do now is to let go of your past and live in the present. This means that you should forgive him.Lord teaches us to forgive for he will also forgive us for our sins if we remorse.In order to let go of the past, you have to forgive him. it doesn’t mean that you have to let him interrupt your life again but a way to cut clear the relationship between the two of you. You should have a serious talk with him, tell him how you feel and let him know that you want to move on and live a new life which is better than before. If he doesn’t cooperate with you, let him be. The withdrawal of visitation should be able to stop him from interfering you and your baby’s lives.

Do not waste your life to hate someone. Life is short, the time we have to love ourselves, others is already not enough, why do we spend so much more time of our lives to hate? Hating someone is so tiring. it’s so exhausted and painful. why do you have to make your life so miserable by hating him? He won’t even care.

Live for yourself. Live for your baby. Live for all the wonderful things in your life. Life is wonderful. This world is wonderful. It’s so beautiful and you should spend more time to discover the amazing things that are happening around you. Look at the blue sky and see the birds flying so freely midair . look at the colorful horizon. Take your time to look at the flowers that bloom when the spring is here. Isn’t this world beautiful? God had created such a beautiful world for us! You should look at it more clearly

The wonderful time may only occur as only a small part of our lives while the rest of it seem so shity . I understand it. that’s why we should focus on the wonderful part even more because it is so precious! Don’t let it slip away just like that. It’s not worth it. Just like a firework, it is not everlasting but it’s beautiful.Human’s life is not everlasting too. that’s why we should appreciate it and live our lives meaningfully with good purposes .

Do you wonder why do we exist on this earth? Do you ever wonder what is the meaning of life? I had wondered. Well, we live for different purposes that god had planned for us. Sadly there are many people who live their lives in vain. You may spend your whole life fulfilling your materialistic desires but what do have you truly earned? when you breathe your last breath can you say out loud that you have no regrets in your life?

No. We can only say that we have lived our lives to the fullest when we have lived our lives meaningfully.Everyone has different purposes. it may take our whole life to seek and found the purpose,but when you found it. you will have no regrets.

Amy, I truly hope that you can find your own purpose in life. Do not live your life in vain for hatred and resentment . forgive . when you lose something, you will gain something. you have to let go. you should start off by being positive and take good care of your baby. Seek for god. He will help you. let him be your light in the darkness and lead you to the bright side of yourself and the world. Don’t let the anger and hatred consumes you. Love with burning passion 🙂 I hope my post can ignite your spirit and help to inspire you in order to live a better life